Sunday, October 30, 2011

Crazy life

Once again this is more for myself since I don't write in a journal like I should.

Its crazy how life works out. A year ago this weekend Brandon took me to Park City for the weekend because I needed to get away. I was at one of my lowest of lows in life. Seemed like nothing was working out and I just wanted to give up on everything. I was having a hard time with not being able to get pregnant and was tired of Brandon and I both having to deal with it. When Dr's tell you that YOU are the reason you can't give your husband kids and he is "normal", it hurts. We had committed that year we were going to do everything we were supposed to as far as going to church, the temple, tithing, ect and it was like the harder we tried the further away we got to having kids. I would tell Brandon all the time that maybe we should just call it quits on our marriage because it wasn't fair what he was having to go through because of me. Both of us shouldn't be having to go through this. He would tell me how crazy I was and he married me for me not just to have kids. I wonder all the time how I got so lucky to have found such an amazing man.
Fast forward to the same weekend a year later and who would have thought I would be having a baby any day now! It still doesn't seem real or possible that within a year I have gone from the lowest point to one of the highest points in life. This has been the most amazing past 9 months of our lives. We have been so blessed and know Heavenly Father has been right there making sure everything goes as he planned. I have not worried one bit that something would go wrong. Ive had the most calm feeling that everything would be ok and that the baby would be ok. Going through IVF you are always waiting for the bad news but I haven't had that once we got our positive blood test back. We are so excited to be taking tho next step in life and can't wait for Taytum to finally join our family.
Thanks to all of our family and friends who have been there for us over the last 5 years as we have been on this crazy roller coaster called life. We love you all and can't wait to show off our little girl!! Hopefully soon.


Ben and Taryn said...

Love you Lacey! It's so good to see you so happy, you deserve it.

Jolynn said...

We can't wait to meet little Taytum Rae. We are going to spoil the heck out of her!!!!